mac 🪴 Mac wud sweep

came to wish everyone a happy new year. was writing a cheesy message that derailed into a notes app musing. it’s all over the place, its not eloquent, but it was cathartic. it felt like i was pulling a loose thread of anxiety out of my chest that unraveled into words

deleting twitter for a few days. i rlly appreciate all the people who have reached out and supported me and it’s so cool that there’s so many of you seeing my dumb silly jokes. don’t go anywhere bc i’ll be back i prommy

debated deleting twitter but it’s the reason i have made more life altering decisions in the last few hours. like reaching out to someone i missed so deeply, almost like a piece of me was missing

wearing my binder around the house bitch!!!!! mac sweep!!!!!

scheduled a therapy appointment for next friday, scheduling my next tattoo as we speak, checking out a different much nicer apartment then originally planned with more financial support from my mom, gonna try and weasel my way into a college course or two. rise and grind boys

just had a very long conversation with my mom where i came out to her as nonbinary (among other things). she told me she’ll support me and try to use my preferred name but not use my preferred pronouns. a win is a win i guess

just finished 😳

i hate being alone. im so scared and i just want to be held. building a lego set so i don’t completely lose it

just scheduled an appointment with a therapist that specializes in gender identity and sexual abuse. very nervous and scared but also so tired of letting these feelings control me. i just want to be loved and happy

why cant life be easy why can’t loving someone be enough

goes to the mall to get a burger king diet coke

🚨 older women tap in 🚨 i would like a kiss

the jake sully fancam made me realize im actually bisexual im sorry everyone

i am so useless and repulsive and stupid i am so fucking stupid and unloveable i am a waste of space

i just want to be wanted i want someone to miss my touch when i’m gone

im fucking devastated im heartbroken im gonna lose it